I haven't been sick even though I felt so nauseous last night and today and have that painful lower back stomach ache that means an upset tummy might be coming, trouble is the amount of painkillers I took yesterday are having the opposite effect. Baby Tom is here today, his mum said he was very tired and would probably sleep, sleep? He doesn't know the meaning of the word! But he is very good natured and incredibly funny now he talks so much, has been using dumplings pretend doctor kit to try and amputate my leg "I have to, nenny" He's a great fan of cbeebies as we are too, no adverts, entirely baby safe tv! He says bye bye every time a programme ends and loves theme tunes, I've sung the koala brothers theme tune so many times, I sing it when he not even around!

Huge fire near where I live, had to walk miles around the exclusion zone to get dumplng from school and even further on the way home, very tired now! Think I have the sicky and upset tummy bug from the little one I look after, feel dreadful, his mum did give me the option not to have him today but I said yes of course we would have him! I will have nightmares forever about the nappy he did this afternoon...

Been to trampolining training today, I used to go to the adult session when Lolly used to bounce competitively (in competitions not just aggressively!) but havnt been for ages, thought it was time if I was going to feel tired and have back ache there ought to be a reason for it! Then went swimming while dumpling had swimming lessons, that felt good and I feel healthy this evening, doubt I'll be able to move tomorrow but we shall see! I even bought myself a new pair of running shoes but that may be pushing it...
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Saw Jon Friday night, did I blog that? Went out for a lovely meal, into town for a few drinks and then back to mine. I cant tell if I'm having a great time or just a good time, been so long I've forgotton what its like. In a way I'm grateful for the attention and the sex (its ok I'm not letting him know that!) but I know I've had better and I dont like this we'll just see how it goes thing, but I also know that if he was being full on I wouldnt like it either! Ok, I admit, I'm hard to please, I want someone to want me just enough but not to make me feel hemmed in!
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Lolly is suffering through puberty. I hate to see her in such physical pain once a month, family trait there, my mother and grandmother had hysterectomys once they were done having children. But also the awful thing hormones to to your mood, she starting to recognise that it is just the hormones talking but still so hard. I know she reads this and thinks I dont know, so sweetheart, I know what you're going through and its ok, its gets better and I'm here for you x
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quick post as I have to pick up dumpling from school, anyone else having cookie problems? (not the problem I have with cookies that requires me to hold my tummy in) I cant sign in to blogger each day as it says i have a java script problem with my cookies? (Why is my keyboard sticky? Separate problem...)

Anyway will post properly later, not that I have much to tell you, its raining, I don't like it when it rains, its still raining. Don't get too excited.

Bank holiday monday

Been out with my dad and the kids since 9am, flown kites, climbed hills, seen wild ponies and a new born one, still icky but so cute, played in shallow streams, real country side day out, we are shattered and dirty but thats what its all about! No pics though as the camera battery died, always ont he day with the best light and photo oppurtunitys!

Google analytics!

oooh! Lots of little orange dots all over the geomap! Still dont quite understand the whole thing, how long does an orange dot last? Anyway lots of people from all over the world, if you're too shy to leave a comment, could you leave me an anonymous one about how you came to this blog?x

How to get your kids to eat veg...

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I have the poster version of this on my fridge but have never attempted to make a veg animal!

The Park

Theres a lovely park on the way home from Dumplings school, we go there most days but I'm starting to regret the habit. How can some mums sit there smoking and swearing and letting their kids run riot? Its a fenced off park in the middle of a huge area of grass, hills and paths so many people walk there dogs there, thats fine, they clear up after them and never let them into the play area. Its the kids and their mothers who are more bother inside the play area! Large sign on the gate says no smoking and no ball games, guess which mums smoke the entire time and encourage their boys to play football amongst the play equipment? Two particular boys terrorise the swing set and came up behind dumpling who was wearing his new cream sun hat with the iron on yellow digger motif I bought him, he loves it and so do the rest of the boys in his school it seems. I was stood by the slide and in their blind spot, 'Lets get his hat off him' said one thug-in-training to the other, you should have seen their faces when I said loudly 'NO'! That was all it needed to have them scurry over to the other side of the park and glare at me, makes me wonder if it was the first time anyone had said the word to them...?

RIP Minty

Minty our old hamster is dying a slow quiet death in lollys hands, doesnt appear to be in pain but is laying down and breathing is getting slower. Had some sort of mild fit this afternoon and started to wobble from side to side as he walked and then collapsed and has been held by lolly ever since.

I hate hearing toddlers tantrum.

Not because I disaprove, toddlers all have tantrums, ok some know when to do it for best effect and some mums dont handle it very well, but what I hate most is the awful comments other people make, I stood in a bus queue in the station today and in the next queue over a very tired crabby boy was straining to get out of his pushchair, every time his tired mum said "will you SIT down?" off he went again. I carried on reading my magazine, I can tune out a whining child, but the muttered comments of others waiting drove me crazy "Glad he's not getting on this bus" to "she needs to do something about that child" to "Why doesnt he just shut up!" What pointless statements to make! I was too far away to start a conversation with her but nobody offered any moral support, they just tutted and judged. Where did our sense of community go? I should have kept the story but a mother here was asked to get off a bus recently as her toddler was tantrumming (did I blog about this? cant remember) the bus driver pulled the bus over and refused to drive on till they got off and not a single person stood up for her. When I read about it in our local paper, I was incensed, I wrote a long angry reply in the comments section of their online version of the paper. We also recently had a baby who had stopped breathing turned away from a new GP office in a large pharmacy, 'she didnt have an appointment' and last christmas a woman fainted in the queue in a large shop as I was paying, I turned around to see what the noise was and people were stepping over her to move forward in the queue! Last month a local man fell down an manhole that hadnt had the cover replaced properly and broke his ribs, he called and called for help, one woman said 'hello' and carried on her way! I help people with directions almost everyday, helped a woman today who dropped her shopping, I've stayed with lost children until the security guard found the mum, I even alerted a toddlers mum when her daughter was silently choking in her buggy, why dont we help each other anymore. I worry all the time that something bad will happen to my kids, what worrys me as much is that nobody will help them if they need it.