Thats me and dumpling not the ex btw, I wouldnt post a photo of her on here although I have one on my pc, not that I need to look at it considering the image is forever burned onto my brain...

What would you do if you found out you bore a striking resemblance to your partners ex?

So tired I couldnt remember my passowrd for blogger...

Reasons why I am tired...

I slept in every morning in the school holidays, not late but later than I have to get up now.

I sometimes got the chance to have a sneaky nap if the kids were out or we were snuggled up watching a film.

The onslaught of PTA emails, texts and playground discussions has been huge and immediate, we raise the most money from now till Christmas and have a lot planned!

Dumplings birthday is next month, he already has everything, what do I buy him, bought one small present in the sale today, he already has something similar but he'll like this and so will Jon!

I'm having to re-let the annexe flat in my house and my perfect tenant had to move in with her ill gran. She has left in good condition, just need to clean windows etc but it does smell like cat despite me shampooing the carpets, have had the windows open everyday and used plenty of shake-n-vac type stuff. New couple are moving in, both student nurses with excellent refs, hope they are long term and we are not too noisy for them!

Probably more reasons, too tired to think of them! x

First Day Back At School

Lolly was up showered and away before I even opened my eyes, I have a vague memory of saying goodbye and questioning whether she had taken her freshly printed bus pass from the hallway shelf, but Dumpling and I got up a little later. We bathed and he got dressed in all new uniform, very cute, then by the time we got downstairs for breakfast his friend from across the road who I've offered to take to school each morning as I already pick him up each day was waiting at the door! He came in to play while we finished getting ready and then we set off, me carrying all the lunchboxes, PE kits, book bags etc while they whizzed along the pavement on their scooters. Dumpling was fine until we rounded the corner into the playground and then his face turned pale and he grabbed for my hand, first day back nerves had just struck. He took it well, I gave him a big hug and sent him in, told him I'd wait to make sure he went in OK, so mature, before now, going back in has been hard and we've had a few tears and had to gently peel him off me and pass him to his classes teaching assistant but this year he took it on the chin, its his last year and he's one of the oldest in the whole school now, it shows and I'm proud of him!

wow its the first day of september, summer is over! We made the most of the bank holiday weekend, Jon and I went to a gig with friends on Friday night, shopping and lunch together on Saturday, friends party on the saturday, took dumpling swimming and water sliding on the sunday and a day festival in the town park yesterday. Jon going to work and me having children round to look after seems weird, surely we were on holiday forever?

Have done something really stupid, the children go back to school on monday 6th and I havnt bought a thing yet, and I dont have any money till Friday, so yes, on the weekend before schools go back here I'm going to try and find uniform and supplies...

I've stopped crying long enough to see the screen clearly enough to write something. My brother in law and his wife used their last ivf embryo in a surrogacy arrangement with a friend of 12 years. She handed the baby over and all was happy. Three days later she turns up with 2 midwives and the police and claims the baby back. And she can. The law was written to protect mums who have eggs donated to them not for surrogacy. In the eyes of the law their biological baby isnt theirs. This woman can keep her even though she isnt her baby. My brother in law can claim paternity rights and ask for visitation but his wife cant claim or apply for anything. If the pain I'm feeling when I think about this is anything to go by then I dont know how they are even still breathing.

Thump

Reality is hard isnt it? Nothing is that bad here, just crashing back to earth after a lovely weekend away. Things are great between Jon and I until you involve kids, family, money, ex's, friends, all the things life is made of. We'll work it out.

In a bad mood

Lollys dad, wife and kids are over from abroad to visit, its all very fine and dandy to anyone who saw us but I hate it. Lolly is going out shopping with them today and while I hope they buy her things she needs I'm in a stinking mood about it. I bring her up for 15 years and they swan in once a year and play happy families.

cat and dog have fleas no matter how much I spray them, the carpets, 90 degree wash everything, I hear its flea season and everytime they go in the garden they pick up more from where the foxes and hedgehogs have been, great. For some reason fleas dont like me, probably the amount of garlic tablets I take but they love dumpling and he keeps running screaming to me as a tiny black dot jumps up his arm. Makes me feel dirty and not in the good way to know there are bugs in my house! Still trying to get rid of dumplings nits, sorry if this post is making you itch, think how it makes me feel I'm here! Lolly and I came to the conclusion that if she ever got nits then the heat from her GHDs would kill them, 240 degree, so she is currently straightening his hair!

cat came back within a few minutes of the tuna being put out, I'm the hero of the neighbourhood! Still think I can smell tuna several showers and baths later...

Its sunday morning, I'm waiting for the children to raise themselves out of bed and tidy up the mess they made of the dining room, strictly speaking Lolly wasnt here, the kids she babysits for all decided to come here and build a large den with Dumpling which involved all of my blankets, it didnt get cleared up, the dog slept in it so its all furry now, Lolly got paid for sitting with their dog and watching tv while I repeatedly said 'can you stop shouting, you're all in the same room!' Lolly came home and offered me the money for babysitting as although she was present, there were no kids there, all destroying my house!

My neighbours cat has wandered off while she is on holiday and her cousin is feeding them so I've put out a bowl of tuna thinking no cat could resist, except all I've got is hands that smell of tuna and lots of other peoples cats!