A question?

How do you pronounce 'meme'?

I thought it was 'mem-may' but Mary P looked it up and its 'meem' to rhyme with theme

Short ramblings...

ok according to google analytics, only people in the USA and Canada are reading me, where did my UK, Europe and the rest of the world go, they were there as little yellow balls a few days ago? And what is Bloglines and why are a big percentage coming to me via them? Still learning...
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Jon texted last night asking again what I would like to do on Saturday night so I told him he can take me out for dinner and then drinks, he agreed and said he was looking forward to seeing me! I guess this is one of those times that I have to be disinterested to keep him interested!
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Lolly threw a fit this morning, trying to convince me that he knee was hurting so much that she couldn't possibly put any weight on it and simply must stay home from school, nothing to do with falling out with my sister and having a french oral exam this morning then...? Tough love I'm afraid, put her on the next bus and rang the school to expect her in 10 minutes late, she'll thank me one day.
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Opened a letter from the home insurance people this morning to find I missed a payment, ok fine, I have 10 days to pay it, ok fine, except that the letter was sent 10 days ago and its only just arrived so the deadline is today! Rang them and told them I'll pay it first thing in the morning when I go to the post office, no problem they said, whenever, whenever? don't send me a threatening letter if you don't mind when it has to be paid by, oh I'm not in the mood for these people....
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Had a glorious afternoon at the park yesterday
but headache from squinting in the sun started by late afternoon and turned into a migraine by early evening, took all the painkillers I could and slept so deeply that I was confused when I woke this morning, still have a residual headache and my shoulders hurt but I never get through a period without a migraine.

guess who has been in touch? and guess who isnt as bothered now he wants to see me..! What am I like, I only want what I think I cant have!

Too many painkillers....

I'd forgotton what taking strong painkillers does to my insides...
I'm off to buy some prune juice...

Feeling happy, relaxed and alls good with the world, wait, that may be the painkillers talking....

Decided to sort of end it with Jon but left it open to interpretation, texted him 'If nothing else, good luck with the football this afternoon (big match of the team he supports) take care' and he replied something like 'sorry, been busy with work all week and am working all weekend, hope u r ok x' so now I dont know if he agrees with my letting it go text or plans to see me again? Got to say, although its nice to have sex again, I dont want a relationship with this guy, but I do want him to want to have one with me!

Had a pleasant morning, went into town to sort out some banking and found a perfect little pair of pumps to go with all my summer clothes! Had a good sort out of my wardrobe and cupboards the other day and found loads of things I had forgotton about, all washed and ironed now and just waiting for the sunshine! Operation gut-suck-in 2007 is doing ok, makes me look a darn sight thinner, but if I sit down all my good work comes undone! I really havnt been bothered about my tum all winter as its covered up but all my pretty summer clothes need a toned tummy! I really should take up swimming again but its such a pain with my contacts and it fries my hair!

Showers working well but the landlord will be charged for the repair as its limescale and thats not covered, great! And if we dont spend £500 on a water softener for the mains water supply its just going to happen over and over again. But its nice to have the shower back on again, so much quicker, less to clean up after and uses far less water than baths so eases my enviromental conscience!
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Still no word from Jon, I'm not going to get in contact with him, I'd rather this just faded out that directly be turned down. Still going to turn him down if he wants to come round, if anyone asks I'm out all weekend on a whirlwind of parties and late nights ok?
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I've been really fed up with my tummy recently, the rest of me is slimmish and although I'm no where near the weight I used to be before Dumpling, I am happy with everything apart the paunch! I read that the best way to get a trim tum is too just hold it in constantly, not only does it look slim while you're doing this, it also works the muscles! So far so good, been 3 days now, have had to learn how to breathe while doing it but it does improve your posture as well and I need all the help I can get there, have 'buggy pushing' posture!
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The pain between my shoulder blades just got too much today so rang the doc and he prescribed some strong painkillers, feeling very happppppy now, but my pupils look like little black dots, not sure I'm safe to drive a pushchair...!

I've reading Mary p's old posts looking for something else to link to but got lost in re-reading them all...but found this one reminded me so much of a little boy I used to care for who adored Thomas the tank engine but couldnt quite pronounce one of the characters, came out as 'fa-king-troller', wasnt too bad till we we took him to a thomas open day with an actor dressed as the fat controller and he shouted his particular pronounciation so, so loudly...

Have woken up tired, thirsty, with a headache and a craving for carbs and sugar and its taken me till 10am to realise why, my period is due today. I'm very much ruled by my hormones, I always get the desire to throw out lots of things when I'm due, bit like the nesting instinct you get when pregnant, the local charity shop knows my cycle and fully expects a few bags of clothes and bric-a-brac around this time of the month!

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Havnt heard from Jon, well I have, if I text him he will reply, and its friendly and polite but thats just what it is, friendly and polite, I'm not contacting him again until he contacts me first. Self respect means that I'm not going to be needy and desperate, even if he does get in touch and want to see me this week I'm going to turn him down on principle, I've arranged to go out on friday with a girlfriend and I'm going to make sure he finds out and doesnt think I'm staying in waiting for his call!

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Am waiting for the shower man, the plumbing company refused to deal with it even though by law they should have but they did get the manufacturers involved quickly and he should be here this morning, I hope they just replace it and I can get back to quick hot showers, so much easier than running the bath, having the bath and then cleaning the bath, showers are so much easier to clean! I did give the bath a really good scrub last night, and the sink and loo, I know they guy will have to stand in and on the edge of the bath to fix the shower and it will be filthy from his boots and bits of plastic etc but pride makes you do these things, I even tied away the pile of magazines that I claim I read when dumpling is in the bath but you know when I really read them...

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Not retiring yet....

Was feeling quite good this morning till I opened my mail, a letter from BUPA (private medical people in the uk)addressed correctly to me, inviting me to inquire about their pensioner care homes! The leaflet might be 'useful in helping you begin to consider the possibility of needing care'

I'm 32!!!

Monday Morning

Our nice weather has ended, the sky is that kind of grey brightness that gives me a headache from squinting and I woke up with the muscles between my shoulder blades in spasm, it doesn't stop me doing anything as it doesn't affect the movement of my head or arms but it really hurts! So I've done the ironing and mopped the floors, they were so dirty after the nice weather yesterday had the kids traipsing in and out all day, passing the sandpit and the chalks each time. The water I poured away was incredible! Although if you want dirty water satisfaction, use one of those carpet cleaners you can get these days, my mum has one and its incredible the sludge you pour away from what looks like a relatively clean carpet! Kind of bored today, plenty of things I could do, none I want to. Lolly woke with a hormonal migraine in the night and is off school today, an alarm of some sort went off twice in the street over night, Lolly and Dumpling slept through it but it woke me with annoyance, so tired today, plus we get lots of bird song here at dawn, most of it soft and beautiful but one bird just squawked and squawked, I lay there dreaming how satisfying it would be to shoot it!

Dumpling asked if we could do some baking this evening, I bought some chiiled cookie dough, havnt used this before, I was going to say how difficult could it be but you should have seen what happened to the last set of cup cakes we made! They were rock hard and we couldnt get the paper cases off, I blamed the manufacturers and emailed them, they were very good about it and posted me a new box but I think it was my cooking...! I never have been great at cooking, my kids dont starve and we eat a variety of foods and lots of fruit and veg but I dont have a signature dish, whats your favourite recipe that I could make?